I give up...

[melioris]

TP, I know encouragement can be meaningless when you are stuck down in the pit of variance with a sore asshole, but you got to keep on keeping on. And remember, it sure does beat a real job.

Go do whatever physical activity you like to do, push your body until it is really tired and sore. It will clear your mind and help with your perspective. Then come back to it and keep making quality decisions. The results will turn around.