poor bloke...

[Talking Poker]

I've read this a number of times and I still don't know what you are trying to say.

In summary: You played it badly. If you know that, great... if not, think about it some more and then maybe try to write a post that at least makes a little sense or uses something that resembles english. Here's a tip: The bold above might be more readable as 3 or 4 sentences instead of one drunken mess.