Finally happened

[PShabi]

Well folks, after over 2 1/2 years of playing online poker, it's finally happened. For the first time, I can actually say, I'm sick of it. I guess getting your ass handed to you for 3 straight months will do that to you. Since my horrendous downswing started in June, I've been getting my ass handed to me on a regular basis.

June was a loser for me, the first losing month in a while. I managed to come out ahead in July and so far this August, but only because of rakeback. I still lost money playing.

At this point, I am so disgusted I can't even take it. To think, 4 months or so ago I thought about playing for a living! LMFAO. That is so far from reality now I don't know what to think.

Somebody's going to come in here and tell me to take a break. Well, I've barely played all month. I don't even have 4,000 hands at 5/10 this month. I've played 75 SNGS. That is the least I've played in over a year.

I don't know what I need to do, or why I'm even typnig this. I'm seriously thinking about withdrawing everything but $1,000 and going to 1/2 6max. I think I need to rebuild and remember just what I did to get where I'm at now, moving up everytime I get 500BB for the new level. But doing that is only going to get me mauled by rake.

Maybe I'll just play B&M for a few months. Maybe I'll quit for good. Who knows? Right now, I need to go to bed cause I have to get up for work in 4 hours. Joy.

I even suck at posting now. I hope I at least don't suck at masturbation.