[melioris]

A wrinkle in scheduling allowed for me to play a shit load of poker this week (for me). It was an opportunity that will not occur in a long time, so I decided to play a ton. It also coincided with me running terrible bad. This concludes the worst week of poker for me. I lost 18 buyins in one week playing 6-max NL. The vast majority was due to variance, looking back I can only attribute 1.5 buyins to tilt, but the ass kicking affected me in another way.

For the last 3-4 days I have been playing scared money. I have heard folks talking about this phenomenon, but I had to drop 18 buyins before I understood what it is. Looking over PT this afternoon, it became clear to me that I was playing with scared money. Now when the two-outers are falling like rain on the river, blaming myself for playing with scared money is akin to blaming the sluttly dressed woman for the rape, neither of us was asking for it (sorry for the bad analogy). But scared money put was putting me in positions where I became vulnerable. Maybe a better analogy is that scared money is the gateway drug for bad beats. Losing is a fundamental part of poker and beyond the control of the player. When you are playing aggressive, mathematically sound poker, losing should be part of maximizing your EV. But losing with scared money is in your control, and most likely is minimizing your EV, or even switching + to a – in terms of EV.

I am not sure what this thread has to offer. The experienced players in TP.com should smile at my naivety. But damn, 20 buyin bankroll is not enough when playing 6-max. Thank god I had around 40 buyins at the start of last week.

So what is the worst you have run?

edit-trying to fix fucked up grammar.