Playing poker is great, something we really love doing, we get a buzz its feels fantastic sitting in front of the pc holding that lucky thing (hope you dont squeeze to hard) asking the lord for the card you need and then thanking him when you get it.
Hour after hour spent infront of a pc, bankroll climbing, then falling then climbing then another deposit but this time your going to play properley, you know you can do it because you know someone who has done it and your a better player than him, step up then win a few, lose a few, step back down, enter tournies. play the low limits who cares hours spent in a low limit tourny with 1000s of other fantastic players.
Hour after fuckin hour, deposit after fuckin deposit...........When will this fuckin bubble burst ,,when Oh when will I start making something out of this fucking game I spend so much time playing, Oh well another deposit but this time I will play different, WONT I. ........ Truth is I fuckin wont, I will fall back into the same routine, same senario, same shit outcome.
Some of us are just not good poker players, we think we are but the bank statements dont lie, we play the same over and over we change now and then but then fall back into our shit ways,,,,well another deposit should sort that out..this time..
This time, shit the chances are the outcome will be the same, so what should some of us do? carry on playing the game we love, depositing enough to sit in a tourny for hours with 1000s of other players and winning it,,winning what 5 hours to beat 2700 players and winning $700 because its another low limit entry game. Fuck this its time to get a grip.
Five months later, not a single game played, not a single $ lost but I have money in the bank, so I must be winning. I miss playing poker, but I dont miss losing, instead of playing I will sit and read articles and books about poker, I go through hands other players have wrote about and understand were it went wrong and can now point were it could have went right. Am I ready to make that next deposit, am I fuck I know I need to learn more because after playing for the past years I learned only one thing and that was that I was a shit poker player who thinks he was good.
Does it matter when I start playing again wether to play in $1 tournies or $100, No but I feel I will have learnt so much more than just playing poker, I feel I will understand how to play poker.
My advice to you Brian could have been said in one word :QUIT: learn and return, more time for yourself, your family, do the overtime instead of the computer time.
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