I'm not sure how to even say this nicely.... I honestly don't mean offense and I'm not making a joke at your expense.
But when I read this, and especially the very last part (and ESPECIALLY when you mentioned N1kita, who is more supportive of you than anyone), I can't help but wonder if you've lost your mind or are someone who is either over or under medicated or something.
Again, I'm not meaning any offense here - I'm just asking that you step back and try to think logically about all of this, ESPECIALLY this post. I mean.....
This is seriously reminding me of the Rook overreacting thread.